Really nice piece, thank you for sharing.
I’m in my mid forties, and just arriving at a similar awareness; it’s one thing to push your limits and be ambitious, but it’s another to feel guilty for not measuring up to a self-imposed imaginary (in my case) benchmark that will always be higher than is achievable.
It’s OK, you’re doing your best, and it is awesome!
Thanks for sharing! We’re not alone :)